At MJ’s his pad, and then was with someone family def before that, not immediate, some father, def maybe brother maybe mum, we were all there hanging out [or family trip].
comes time to go, getting into a van or on bus of some kind.
Saying farewells getting on, give Mike a hug
Before boarding the thing, we hug deeply and as we embrace feel myself totally let go and release and start weeping heavily sobbing, it is so sorrowful.
i feel deep compassion and caring from him, very affection and like he knows the depth and pain within me.
After boarding the thing we are about to move off
then i leap off the bus thing. it simply continues on as if i did not just do this, or fam was totally unaware i had jumped ship. mike just accepts it, almost as if he knew i was going to do it.
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Mike says how he knew i really wanted to stay and that he is glad i made the decision.
it seems to be his house where we are, not the main ranch, but just a nice mansion, shiny things, gold, a fire place, plush looking things looking like they are made of expensive fabric and expertly made.
there is something almst like a montage, of us hanging out, having good times and being fun and so happy there is so much joy it is overflowing the fabrice of the reality.
there is deep conversation, and i sense that he askes me specifically what the matter is, (the reason i am weeping so deeply), but i…i dont not recall now……
published on: 2016 March 13