love and loathing

How do i keep it alive / Im standing on the orange coals of whatever

My stupid rainbow has a human-like fickleness,

With this moniker of “my” it can only be so;
that breed of consciousness which infatuation sews
belongs to the lonely loners —
     not the lovers left alone
     but those who are destined
     to call loneliness Home
       CYCLE
Hurt — do the things you loathe
Hurt — and loathe the things you do;
     hold them in high disdain,
        and pay thyself not
       the heed one is due

sometimes-somewhere

sometimes i think about engaging in sexual liason with someone who has serious anger issues. not sure what thats about-though i wonder if it wouldnt wind up being like that scene in that araki movie about the experience that makes gordon-levitt’s character seriously reconsider his path in life and his choices.

the protector hand lay silent amidst ashed and dried wax. neon green tower flares with cartoon flames, beneath further towers filled with dablooms and precious gems and mementos from a different time gone by

The sirens in the distance are like singing, the sirens that are close sing some kind of show in which everybody knows right where they belong, right there, gawking, and fiddling their genitals with the fingers of their minds, subconsciously waiting to be shot or stabbed at any given time

Sometime
somewhere
someone has
a polaroid
of
the
ultimate
defecation,
the eternal
final shit
for the ages
Come dear
ones, pap
shall spin
u
a yarn, it
is old
and strong
and perfectly
long
Our deep
pains and
nightmares
grow with
us,
troubles
pack these
lives into
the flimsy
bags of our
lives, and
lo, so much
little is yet known about where the destination leads or what is
supposed to have been packed from the get go

Reading over the old scrolls, this reader is certainly touched

The scrolls try invariably to maintain their rolled shapes

Holidays these days play template for every game of fools, we fools sing merrily, flush, stumbling through wet and mud laughing at the absurdity of even our jollity, and the strangeness of feeling selfish for jollity in the darkened times.

some walk with scars, with the little devil’s on their shoulders looking out for them toward the rear, while they smile for this short time of jubilee, the last days that any of those sent could safely walk the streets, and now theres no getting off the land – only death or victory